April

April...my birthday month...the month that I will age yet again by one year...that I'll keep marching forward...heading towards that dark forest that beckons all of us...that pulls us unwilling towards our conclusion...that quietly draws us in...I look from side to side...I am not alone and yet I am...I am not unhappy and yet I am sad...the vastness of my life is narrowing...funneling from energetic to weary...from vigor to tedium...if I had six months left to live how would I spend them I ask myself...by redecorating my house I answer...so that in my last moments I could look around, see beauty and be content...I shall start with my living room...new vertical blinds...recover couch and chair...happy birthday.