Ennui

Another day passed...a look at the to-do list...miscellany...mundane minutia...necessary but boring...nothing interesting...must dos but don't want to dos...the keep-moving-forward stuff...automaton suit up and show up...a list of discontent...weariness...of ennui...no pay off from crossing something off...no sense of control...and of stimulating projects...the ones of deep meaning and fulfillment...of dense complexity...those are the stuff of the past...a giant red flag waves at the mere thought...a huge blockade of no...of can't...of won't...and the world grows smaller...wallpapered by so what